Thursday, December 10, 2009

Meanwhile, Three Months Later....

So it's what December 10th already and I have not looked at this blog in three months.. that's pretty sad! Well, if there's anyone out there still reading this blog after all this time.... I just may be in the mood to update it more often.

Here's the problem - once the initial flush of unemployment freedom hit - and I took a couple trips and started back on my old work habits of writing on my own, putting tiny fundraising events together and even doing some social network consulting, I found myself tumbling into a deep depression. I did some temp work but the sadness of making crap wages (down from slightly better than crap wages at the old survival job) and sitting at a sad and slow computer in the middle of an office, was too much for even me, and I've done some seriously terrible temp jobs in my life. This one wasn't abusive but it was just.. well, sad. And that it came on top of finding a new roommate, well, it was just overwhelming.

But now although the new roommate hasn't worked out and I'll be bidding him goodbye in the new year and work hasn't turned up, I am oddly hopeful. I guess the only option would be to be suicidal and as Peggy Lee says, "I'm not ready for that final disappointment" So I will carry on. My heart isn't in the tiny fundraising work I've been doing again and other things seem at a dead end.

If only I was even remotely interested in cooking, I could go all Julie/Julia on the world's ass and write a big old blog following recipes. But the reality is that I'm happiest when I eat simple meals like cheap chinese food from the place around the corner and chicken dunked in super fantastic gravy when visiting Montreal.

So I will sit here and type my little blog again.. and ask.. is anyone out there?